Hey guys!
Today I fancied doing a Q&A so I found some questions and I'm going to answer them for you!
1. Who is your celebrity crush?
I actually have many celebrity crushes. I have a lot of female crushes. When I say a lot, I mean a lot: zoella, cara delivigne, Taylor swift, Melanie Martinez, Lilly Singh, Grace Helvig and Selena Gomez. I told you that there was a lot! Male: RuPaul (or does he count as both as I love him both in and out of drag!), Ed Sheeran, all the members of 5SOS (especially Calum) and Jessarae!
2. What makeup product could you not live without?
I feel like concealer because you can cover any bad spots or redness which may make you feel self conscious and stuff. Like I have been out many times before with just concealer on.
3. Who is your inspiration?
My inspiration is actually a youtuber called Lilly Singh aka iisuperwomanii, you proborbly know who she is! For a very long time lilly was the only person who could make me smile. The way she thinks, her positivity, everything about her is just something I find so inspiring. She is a surviver of depression which really shows that you can get through it. Lilly really means something to me on a personal level that I find so hard to explain. She is not only so beautiful on the outside but she is extremely beautiful on the inside. I discovered her not long before I got told I was depressed and she was the first person who had made me smile in a while. She always relaxes me when I'm nervous and for the length of her video I can forget my problems.
4. Favourite show to binge watch on Netflix
This used to be pretty little liars and I would watch it so much that the little message would come up saying are you sure you want to continue watching where Netflix was like judging you. However ever since I finished that I have been binge watching RuPauls drag race. However now I've finished that aswell so I am watching videos related to it and everything. So I would have to say that Rupauls drag race is definately my favourite show to binge watch.
5. Favourite clothes shop?
100% primark because it's so affordable! I do also love new look which I feel like not many people talk about. I like primark prices but the clothes they have in new look!
6. What hair colour would you like to be?
I would like to have pastel pink hair but I'm not sure that it would suit me as I'm as pale as pale can be and naturally I have darkish brown hair. Preferably dip dye but my hair is too short for dip dye at the moment. I would also like to have maroon or burgundy hair which ombre's from a darker colour at the roots to a lighter colour at the bottom. I feel like that would suit me quite well as its still sort of dark and it looks good with your hair curly. My hair is naturally wavy so sometimes its hard to find a hair colour to suit me. As for a natural colour I would quite like to go a darker brown at some point. Not black but darker than my natural hair which is sort of milk chocolate brown colour.
7. Favourite bands?
Of course my favourite band is 5 seconds of summer, I've been a fan of them since 2013 and I love them so incredibly much! Every single one of their songs are amazing and all of the members are great, even though my personal FAVE is Calum Hood. Other bands I love are: Panic! At the disco, One direction (do they count?), go radio and twenty one pilots. Let's just say I have a very wide range of music taste
8. Who are your all time favourite singers?
ED SHEERAN ALL THE WAY! I am such a SHEERIO it is insane! I love Ed so much and I honestly think I would still love him just the same even if he did wrong. Ed's music hits me on such a personal level and it is one of the only things in the world which can make me cry (I literally never cry). I used to listen to Ed's music and get so into it that I would cry, and end up doing no work! Other singers I love so much are: Taylor Swift and Jessarae
9. What female youtuber would you like to be for a day?
In case you can't already guess, I would definitely have to be iisuperwomanii as I would just like to see what it's like for her in her daily life. I would also love to be Grace Helbig as she is so halerious!
10. What about male youtuber?
I actually quite struggled with this one as I don't watch many male youtubers. However I have racked my brain and realised that I can be Willam Belli for a day. Willam is a drag queen who was on season 4 of RuPaul's drag race. He was the only queen to get disqualified due to him breaking the rules. Willam posts videos on his YouTube channels including parodies of songs and a series called Paint me bitch where he gets people to give him a makeover. Damn would I love to have his/her confidence and it would be so much fun to be able to get in drag! Willam has a sense of humour that I feel like some people may find a bit offensive but he is so funny! He has also been in quite a lot of films including Sex and the city. I honestly think Willam would've won if she didn't break the rules as she is so talented.
11. If you could visit anywhere in the world where would you like to visit?
I don't know why but I've always wanted to go to New Zealand but it's really far so I most likely will never go there which is sad. However I would also like to go to Rome as I love all the culture and I would like to go to Amsterdam, maybe or maybe not because of TFIOS, as it's so pretty! I absolutely love pretty places and I want to visit them as Birmingham (where I live) is so ugly! On top of that Japan would just be so cool!
12. How do you deal with your anxiety and panic attacks?
As bad as it sounds, I avoid situations. I stay in the house, I don't travel alone, I make sure not to speak to people I don't know. I used to hide in the toilets so that I could get out of doing things I didn't feel comfortable doing at school. I really don't recommend doing this. You need to push yourself out of your comfort zones in order to get better. Personally though, I haven't managed to do that yet.
13. What is your favourite makeup brand?
Considering I am cheap af I would have to say that MUA and collection is my favourite brand! Like I love the concealer and powder from collection. From MUA I love their eyeshadows, highlighters and lipsticks. You don't need to spend loads of money to get the job done!
14. If you could be any celebrity for a day who would you be?
I would be Taylor Swift when she is on tour as it would be so amazing to experience that. Also not going to lie, she is so beautiful! Her talent and her looks are amazing, it would be so great to be in her shoes for a day!
15. Can you sing?
hahahahahaha NO. I am literally the most terrible singer in the world and it makes me so sad!
16. Have you ever had a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yeah, I have actually had both. I had a boyfriend in 2014, we got together on the 6th September and I ended the relationship as my anxiety got to my head too much. We are still good friends now and he has been with his current girlfriend for a year and a half. I couldn't be more happy for him. I had a girlfriend not long ago, which I also ended because again my mental health was too bad.
17. Biggest regret?
My biggest regret is that I let my anxiety get the best of me and stop me from doing the things I wanted to do. It's that I feel like I haven't lived my life to the full. It's that I didn't put myself out there more. I regret faking being okay, I regret not telling anyone that I wanted to commit suicide or getting help. I regret not getting a good relationship with my family. I have a lot of regrets but the things I didn't do have made me the person I am today. They have made me realize that I should try my hardest to live my life to the fullest.
18. Biggest success?
Plain and simple, my biggest success is being alive today. I have tried to end my life so much, I have been hopeless, I have given up and pushed those closest to me away. However somehow I managed to continue fighting. I survived all the suicide attempts because I wasn't ready to die. For the first time in a while I am thankful to be alive. I have someone close to me who I can trust with anything. I made my first promise in two years. I am proud of myself. I am not better. I am still extremely ill but for the first time in a while I am seeing the world in colour.
19. Do you prefer pizza or burgers?
PIZZAAAAA! I absolutely love pizza, my favourite is Hawaiian (ham and pineapple) which most people find so odd.
20. Dream wedding and dress?
YES I AM 16 AND I ALREADY KNOW THIS EVENTHOUGH I DON'T HAVE A PARTNER. Okay my dream wedding is in a church in the spring when there's blossom on the trees. I want there to be a lot of flowers there. My dream dress would have a little train, would most likely have sleeves incase my eczema is bad. It would be full length and I want it to have some lace on. I want it to have an open back and something flattering on the chest area. I want my hair up in one of those fancy buns with little flowers in and a veil.
Thanks for reading my Q & A,
Love you lots,
Scarlett xxx
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Oh my is there a story behind this t-shirt. Strap yourselves in and get ready for this because I have a lot to say! It was a Friday which was the day before my 16th Birthday. My best friend (we weren't as close at the time) bought in my present to school. I opened it and saw this t-shirt and I literally screamed. No joke right there in the cafeteria I got it out and put it on over my uniform. As I was going to slfl with her I thought it would be cute to wear this. So this is the t-shirt I wore to my first ever concert.
I have been sort of lucky in that I haven't really had online hate and I have only had a couple of instances involving people being inappropriate. However even I know how badly online hate can hurt someone and I don't understand why people feel the need to be mean. They say they are "only telling the truthful" or that they "have the right to their own opinion". Both of those things are valid but they don't give you the right to hurt someone else. There is a difference between being mean and telling the truth. Sometimes the truth doesn't need to be said. You don't like their hair, so what it's their hair not yours!
Feathers: Yes this is a beauty favourite... give me a minute to explain! I got these feathers which hung down from hair clips and they're so cool, I absolutely love them. I've only worn them a few times and people always give me a weird look for it but I think they're amazing! Plus it's summer so I feel like you can get away with stuff like this! They were really cheap aswell, I got them in a 5 for £5 at Claire's which meant they were £1 and they came with 2 clips aswell!
Celebrity
This month my favorite celebrity is Jessarae. He's not extremely popular but he did support for 5 Seconds of summer in SLFL. He is an incredibly talented singer who is such a genuinely nice person. I didn't know until today but he is actually related to Steven R McQueen a.k.a Jeremy from the Vampire Diaries. I really suggest that you listen to his music. He has an EP released called Nobody's human which is so amazing! Jesse is 21 (birthday is June 5th 1995) and I think is originally from California but now lives in London. Oh yeah his real name is Jesse Robitaille by the way, even though I know most people just call him Jess. I know that his dad Luc has something to do with Hockey, his brother is an actor and I think his step dad is famous as well so he has a very famous, and talented, family. Jess plays a type of acoustic rock and honestly I feel like anyone could enjoy his music. I am pretty sure he started his music career at 16 after persuing his life long dream of being a singer. So that's the best I can sum him up! Just please go listen to him!
I actually quite struggled with this one as I don't watch many male youtubers. However I have racked my brain and realised that I can be Willam Belli for a day. Willam is a drag queen who was on season 4 of RuPaul's drag race. He was the only queen to get disqualified due to him breaking the rules. Willam posts videos on his YouTube channels including parodies of songs and a series called Paint me bitch where he gets people to give him a makeover. Damn would I love to have his/her confidence and it would be so much fun to be able to get in drag! Willam has a sense of humour that I feel like some people may find a bit offensive but he is so funny! He has also been in quite a lot of films including Sex and the city. I honestly think Willam would've won if she didn't break the rules as she is so talented.
This post is also to say how important it is that you do not diagnose yourself. If you think you have anxiety, depression or anything 'wrong' (you're perfect anyway) with you please talk to a professional. I did it through school as my school got in a therapist for me who diagnosed me. If you are afraid to talk to the doctor then write what you feel down and go someone you trust and see if they have any advice. You just have to be brave and put yourself first. Don't give a fuck what people think of you for once in your life and do something which will benefit YOU. This may be hard especially if, like me, you have anxiety. However you don't want it to get to the point where you cannot cope anymore and you will do anything to end it. Please get help before then. I don't want to see any of you be in the place I have been in where ambulances are phoned on me and I am threatened to be detained in hospital for my safety. As soon as you know something is up talk to someone, even if it turns up to be nothing it's better safe then sorry. Just like physical illnesses, mental illnesses can be treated better in the early stages.
Whatever you find happiness don't let anyone take that away from you. Pride yourself on it. So what if you feel happy playing chess, then go play chess. You get happiness from reading, then read! Do whatever you need in life to find happiness. A life lived to the full wasn't one where you spent all your time working and pretending to like things to fit in. A life lived to the full is a life where you can look at yourself in the mirror and know that you are truly happy.
I am not sure if I am just heteromantic (meaning I like people of opposite genders) or if I am biromantic (like people of both genders) but I know for sure I am asexual.
Being asexual does not mean that I don't date or that I don't want a relationship it means that I don't want sex. The thought of me having sex makes me feel physically sick. I am not sexually attracted to people. Genitalia freak me out! That's not just me being immature, I am 16 years old and I have been through so much. I know this is my sexuality and I feel like a freak for it.
If you look at the map the purple countries are the countries where same sex marriage is legal. It may have changed by now.
The fact is me being asexual doesn't mean I don't love. Asexual love is love too. After all the horrible things which have happened to the LGBTQ+ community I think people need to be more educated on different sexualities. The people who attack and discriminate against the LGBTQ+ community think that we have done something wrong by our sexualities, but we don't chose our sexualities and at the end of the day love is love. We aren't hurting anyone and if anyone is sinning it's those who discriminate against the LGBTQ+ community as is most (if not all) religious discrimination is seen as wrong. You should not use your religion as an excuse. To take Christianity for example, they teach that it is wrong for a man to sleep with another man as it cannot lead to pregnancy. God has made us how we are and he loves everyone, God loves us whether we are gay, bisexual or heterosexual. God has put us on this planet because he thinks we are worthy enough. He wants us to live our lives in a good way, by being homophobic, for example, you are living your life wrong. He has put challenges on the Earth to allow you to become a better person. There are many religious people who are ally's of LGBT+ or who are a member of the LGBTQ+ community themselves. I am not saying you should go against your religion, I am just saying that you don't have to be homophobic, you can still be non judgemental and still love those who your religion may go against.
This look is a go to style which is really comfy but still looks good. I have paired some skinny blue jeans with a cropped t-shirt, a leather jacket and some black pumps. As it is spring I have added layering into this outfit because you never know when it's going to get cold or begin to rain.
I am currently obsessed with this black checked shirt so I just had to include it in one of the looks. For this look I added a bit of pastel pink because it just screams spring.
