How can I forget

Forgive and forget right?
That's what they always say.
But how can I forget the way you made an ocean cascade down my cheeks and the way you pushed a dagger right through my heart.
How can I forget the hurt you caused me time and time again.
I can't forget the confusion I felt. And how you told me I was stupid. I had never felt so dumb in my life.
And the worst thing of all was, I loved you...
I didn't love you like how friends love each other. It was different. When I thought of my future I thought of it with you. And only you.
Was I stupid or were you the only person I had ever met who I could be truly myself with.
The way you made me cry that day I thought the tears would never stop falling.