Thursday, 30 June 2016

Something I need to tell you...

It's the last day of June and before the end of the month I need to tell you guys something.

As this is the month of pride I wanted to tell you before this month ends. I am not particularly proud of my sexuality and in some ways I am sort of ashamed, but it is what it is and I want to tell you
I am asexual.

I am not sure if I am just heteromantic (meaning I like people of opposite genders) or if I am biromantic (like people of both genders) but I know for sure I am asexual.

Being asexual does not mean that I don't date or that I don't want a relationship it means that I don't want sex. The thought of me having sex makes me feel physically sick. I am not sexually attracted to people. Genitalia freak me out! That's not just me being immature, I am 16 years old and I have been through so much. I know this is my sexuality and I feel like a freak for it.

I feel like I am broken and strange. They say a humans basic desire is to have sex yet I hate the idea of it. I want to die a virgin yet I feel like society will pressure me into having sex one day. Sex is seen as such a fashionable thing, it is in literally every TV show, so many films, we are taught about it at school. I am at an age where I can legally have sex. There are people I know who have already lost their virginity, imagine how that feels to me.

The world has progressed so much since the when I was born in 2000. In 2001 Same-sex marriage was legalized for the first time ever in the Netherlands.
If you look at the map the purple countries are the countries where same sex marriage is legal. It may have changed by now.

We have come such a long way as 15 years ago there was no countries where it was legal. However we still have such a long way to go.

I am so proud that I get to grow up in a generation where it is okay to be LGBTQ. More people can come out as gay as it is legally allowed, before you broke the law for being gay and you could be killed for it.

We cant stop here though, we still have such a long way to go. Light needs to be shone on the sexuality which are not known of. For a long time I didn't know why I was different, I didn't know of asexuality so I thought that I was just weird. The term LGBT (lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender) is widely used but what about the other sexuality. I thought the term LGBTQIA included everyone but I think the correct umbrella of sexuality terms is LQBTQIAPD. Yes that may seem like a lot but we need to respective of this as people class themselves as this and I think we need to know this. Honestly before I did some research before this I didn't know of anything other then LGBTQ+

The fact is me being asexual doesn't mean I don't love. Asexual love is love too. After all the horrible things which have happened to the LGBTQ+ community I think people need to be more educated on different sexualities. The people who attack and discriminate against the LGBTQ+ community think that we have done something wrong by our sexualities, but we don't chose our sexualities and at the end of the day love is love. We aren't hurting anyone and if anyone is sinning it's those who discriminate against the LGBTQ+ community as is most (if not all) religious discrimination is seen as wrong. You should not use your religion as an excuse. To take Christianity for example, they teach that it is wrong for a man to sleep with another man as it cannot lead to pregnancy. God has made us how we are and he loves everyone, God loves us whether we are gay, bisexual or heterosexual. God has put us on this planet because he thinks we are worthy enough. He wants us to live our lives in a good way, by being homophobic, for example, you are living your life wrong. He has put challenges on the Earth to allow you to become a better person. There are many religious people who are ally's of LGBT+ or who are a member of the LGBTQ+ community themselves. I am not saying you should go against your religion, I am just saying that you don't have to be homophobic, you can still be non judgemental and still love those who your religion may go against.

I'm sorry that this turned into a sort of rant thing, I just had so much I had been holding inside of me that I needed to get out. I didn't mean for any of this to sound rude or mean, I am completely supportive of everyone's views as long as they aren't hurting anyone else.

Please tell me your opinion as I would love to know what others think.

Also yes I am asexual and after writing this post I have become slightly more proud of myself

Scarlett x

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