Wednesday, 9 December 2015

Im so ashaimed of myself

Hey there,

Firstly i would just like to clarify that i am writing this on my phone so i havent got autocorrect or spell check and i am not the best at typing so... sorry in advance.

I have an uncontrollable eating habit. I eat so much food and i cannot stop, even if i am not hungry. I am so self concious about it and it makes me so upset as i cannot stop eating eventhough i do hate eating now. When i look in the mirror i notice the change. I notice my stomach and how instead of being an 'l' shape it is now a 'c' shape. But not a nice curve. An ugly one. I always see people who are on the bigger side and think that they look damn great and confident, so how come i feel so shit. Is it the fact everyone is lying to me, telling me i am skinny. Or is it just the fact i am afraid as i cannot fit into clothes i used to. My body feels like a prision to me and eventhough the cage has expanded it has made me feel more clostrophobic inside.

Scarlett x


  1. Scarlett, I may have no idea what you look like, but I'm telling you now. I am going through the same thing. It doesn't matter what you look like. You only live once. (yes I just used yolo) therefore, you should try and be happy with the way you look.You are beautiful no matter what. It's whats on the inside that counts, not on the outside. If a guy only likes you for your looks, he's not worth your time. I hope this helped you, sorry if it didn't.

    XOXO Bella

    1. Aw thankyou so much Belle. You see I do not think very nice things about myself and I can get in very bad places at times. When I am in one of those places I like to come to my blog and write about it. So I do not feel this way all the time, but thankyou for caring x