Isn't it sad when you are hurting so much you can finally say that you are used to it. But I'm just fed up of hurting and I just don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to have to wake up, I don't want to have to smile, I don't want to laugh, I don't want to go to school, I don't want to apologise anymore. I am far past the point of saving because I have sunk too deep. I am not drowning anymore, I have drowned and I am lying lifeless at the bottom of the water. My body may be walking along the street but my heart has gone. I am sick of crying, tired of trying, yeah I am smiling but on the inside I am dying. However I will continue to mutter the words "I'm fine" every single time you ask whether I am okay. I am not fine, I am far from it but isn't that just what you want to hear.