Hey there,
So I wanted to talk about a few of the presents I have received and just say how thankful I am for them.
iPhone 5s: As many of you will know iPhones are very expensive. My phone (Samsung Galaxy Fame) came to the end of its two year contract this Christmas. I have been looking at iPhones for a very long time but I understood that my parents could not afford them and I was fine with that. I was grateful for the phone I had. My dads friend was selling his old iPhone 5s which was good quality but cheap compared to the RRP. So he bought it for me and he surprised me with it. He gave it me and he said that I meant to much to him. He said that he knew this year had been hard on me and that all he wanted in the world was for me to be happy. The fact is I didn't think my dad thought that way about me. I didn't know how to react. I just burst into tears. I was not crying over the fact he had bought me an iPhone (which I was very happy about don't get me wrong), I was crying over the fact that this is the first time in all of my memory that any one of my family members have told me how much I meant to them. This was the best Christmas gift I could ever of asked for. Material gifts are nice, of course, but the thing is money can buy you some things but it cannot buy you true happiness. Having people who show they love you and people you will forgive you, who will do anything for you is the best gift ever.
Kindle: I absolutely adore writing as you can probably tell from my blog. Anyway I always have to look up words which are better to use. My step nan bought me a kindle and I'm so pleased with it. I love reading but I feel like I just don't do it enough. It takes me so long to get through a book. By having this it will encourage me to read more. Also it will expand my vocabulary as if you do not understand a word you can just click on it and it tells you what it means. On top of that it gives you information if you click on a characters name which is so useful for me as I am really bad at following storylines.
Scarlett x
Friday, 25 December 2015
Merry Christmas - What I got for christmas haul
Heyyy,
Today it is finally the big day which everything has been building up for almost two months now. The build up to Christmas is usually my favourite time of year but this year it was different, not only was I suffering with extreme sadness (yay) but we had mock exams the last two weeks of school. So basically I couldn't get excited until Saturday 19th December, which was only 6 days before Christmas.
Anyway the day itself has been surprisingly good. I have only felt sad a few times in the day and I have only nearly broke down once, which is a lot less than usual. So the thing is today has been a success in my eyes. The success may of came from the amount of amazing presents I received but I'm pretty sure it wasn't just that. For the first time in a while I have felt content with almost my whole family, except my dad, but baby steps.
On my Pinterest I will be posting pictures of my presents. Please do not think in any way I am bragging, this year I have received many more presents than usual, however many of them are smaller less expensive gifts and the expensive ones were second hand or a main gift from my grandparents. I don't think I will be able to post very good photos as the camera I have isn't very good and the lighting is also unsatisfactory. I will try my best though.
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and spent it doing the things which make you happy. If you would like to check out my what I got for Christmas haul then head over to my Pinterest: https://uk.pinterest.com/thelittlethingx/what-i-got-for-christmas-2015/
Stay smiling guys!
Love,
Scarlett x
Today it is finally the big day which everything has been building up for almost two months now. The build up to Christmas is usually my favourite time of year but this year it was different, not only was I suffering with extreme sadness (yay) but we had mock exams the last two weeks of school. So basically I couldn't get excited until Saturday 19th December, which was only 6 days before Christmas.
Anyway the day itself has been surprisingly good. I have only felt sad a few times in the day and I have only nearly broke down once, which is a lot less than usual. So the thing is today has been a success in my eyes. The success may of came from the amount of amazing presents I received but I'm pretty sure it wasn't just that. For the first time in a while I have felt content with almost my whole family, except my dad, but baby steps.
On my Pinterest I will be posting pictures of my presents. Please do not think in any way I am bragging, this year I have received many more presents than usual, however many of them are smaller less expensive gifts and the expensive ones were second hand or a main gift from my grandparents. I don't think I will be able to post very good photos as the camera I have isn't very good and the lighting is also unsatisfactory. I will try my best though.
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and spent it doing the things which make you happy. If you would like to check out my what I got for Christmas haul then head over to my Pinterest: https://uk.pinterest.com/thelittlethingx/what-i-got-for-christmas-2015/
Stay smiling guys!
Love,
Scarlett x
Thursday, 24 December 2015
Transformations
Hey,
So I thought I would write a quick update about my Pinterest: https://uk.pinterest.com/thelittlethingx/
In case some of you don't know I post pictures on my Pinterest account as my blogger has broke causing me to be unable to post pictures which is a bit crap. To save getting all worked up about it I made a Pinterest account to post my pictures on.
If you have checked it out you will notice a board called 'Transformations'. On this board there are PICTURES OF ME. Well me with a hella load of makeup on, therefore meaning it doesn't look anything like me. Now these pictures are on my personal (private) social media accounts and they do have the real me on. The fact is I'm sure that no body is going to find these, but if they somehow do then I do not care. The reason I made this blog was so I could express my feelings, I should not be afraid of these feelings being associated with me.
Anyway as I was saying I will post my transformations as I have such a passion for makeup and I want to share my passion with others. I am hoping by doing this it may inspire others to do what they love no matter what and to not be afraid to share the results.
Scarlett x
So I thought I would write a quick update about my Pinterest: https://uk.pinterest.com/thelittlethingx/
In case some of you don't know I post pictures on my Pinterest account as my blogger has broke causing me to be unable to post pictures which is a bit crap. To save getting all worked up about it I made a Pinterest account to post my pictures on.
If you have checked it out you will notice a board called 'Transformations'. On this board there are PICTURES OF ME. Well me with a hella load of makeup on, therefore meaning it doesn't look anything like me. Now these pictures are on my personal (private) social media accounts and they do have the real me on. The fact is I'm sure that no body is going to find these, but if they somehow do then I do not care. The reason I made this blog was so I could express my feelings, I should not be afraid of these feelings being associated with me.
Anyway as I was saying I will post my transformations as I have such a passion for makeup and I want to share my passion with others. I am hoping by doing this it may inspire others to do what they love no matter what and to not be afraid to share the results.
Scarlett x
Im dreading christmas.
Hey,
As I am writing this it is Christmas eve, so happy holidays to all of you.
Christmas is a time to be with the people you love, the time for you to be with family and friends, the time to relax.
Christmas is going to be hard for me. As you may or may not know my relationship with my family is very bad. Mainly it is due to me, but to be honest everything is my fault so that's not much of a surprise.
You are meant to go to your family with your worries. The thing is though I don't want to go to my family and I don't think I ever will. I don't want my parents to understand my situation. My parents have been told almost everything about the way I am feeling yet they still say that its nothing, that I'm fine and that I'm making it up. They should of been supportive, but not just when they found out. They have not been supportive throughout my life. I would be on the floor, hysterically crying and they would simply look at me and walk away. If they said anything they would simply say "there's nothing I can do". I needed that support. I needed them to bend down and to hold me. I needed them to kiss my cheek and wipe away my tears and tell me it is okay. I NEEDED IT.
Why should I want to reach out to the people who have refused to help me and give me advice. Why should I be expected to try and fix our families relationship. The fact is our families relationship was broken the day I was born but even when I was too young to make any difference in fixing it my parents left it broken. They did not support me. I understand now why. The thing is I am not the child they wanted. My lungs don't work properly, my skin is constantly ripped and bleeding, I am in constant pain: if not from my medical conditions then from my mental conditions, I am depressed, I am suicidal, I have anxiety and maybe even autism. My parents aren't the most accepting of people and I am literally the worst nightmare for them. Nothing about me is right.
Especially my dad. Why am I expected to have a good relationship with him of anyone. He was the one who I gave my trust to yet he broke that trust. He broke that trust in the worst of ways, he took it in between his hands and he ripped it in a million pieces. I cant mend that trust. I cannot be expected to. People can look down on my with disappointed whispers and judgements for this but how am I meant to trust him. The person who used to scream at me every single morning. He would blame me for everything. He would push me down onto the floor and scream into my face. I can still feel the spit spraying from every word and him 'accidently' walking into me. I still remember how he would call me shit every single week and how he belittled me.
I want a family who loves me.
I want a family who will tell me it will be okay in the end.
However I don't have that. This Christmas I have to spend time with my family. I guess I should be thankful as I do have a family whereas some people do not.
Scarlett x
As I am writing this it is Christmas eve, so happy holidays to all of you.
Christmas is a time to be with the people you love, the time for you to be with family and friends, the time to relax.
Christmas is going to be hard for me. As you may or may not know my relationship with my family is very bad. Mainly it is due to me, but to be honest everything is my fault so that's not much of a surprise.
You are meant to go to your family with your worries. The thing is though I don't want to go to my family and I don't think I ever will. I don't want my parents to understand my situation. My parents have been told almost everything about the way I am feeling yet they still say that its nothing, that I'm fine and that I'm making it up. They should of been supportive, but not just when they found out. They have not been supportive throughout my life. I would be on the floor, hysterically crying and they would simply look at me and walk away. If they said anything they would simply say "there's nothing I can do". I needed that support. I needed them to bend down and to hold me. I needed them to kiss my cheek and wipe away my tears and tell me it is okay. I NEEDED IT.
Why should I want to reach out to the people who have refused to help me and give me advice. Why should I be expected to try and fix our families relationship. The fact is our families relationship was broken the day I was born but even when I was too young to make any difference in fixing it my parents left it broken. They did not support me. I understand now why. The thing is I am not the child they wanted. My lungs don't work properly, my skin is constantly ripped and bleeding, I am in constant pain: if not from my medical conditions then from my mental conditions, I am depressed, I am suicidal, I have anxiety and maybe even autism. My parents aren't the most accepting of people and I am literally the worst nightmare for them. Nothing about me is right.
Especially my dad. Why am I expected to have a good relationship with him of anyone. He was the one who I gave my trust to yet he broke that trust. He broke that trust in the worst of ways, he took it in between his hands and he ripped it in a million pieces. I cant mend that trust. I cannot be expected to. People can look down on my with disappointed whispers and judgements for this but how am I meant to trust him. The person who used to scream at me every single morning. He would blame me for everything. He would push me down onto the floor and scream into my face. I can still feel the spit spraying from every word and him 'accidently' walking into me. I still remember how he would call me shit every single week and how he belittled me.
I want a family who loves me.
I want a family who will tell me it will be okay in the end.
However I don't have that. This Christmas I have to spend time with my family. I guess I should be thankful as I do have a family whereas some people do not.
Scarlett x
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