Not so 'bad' habits turns into serious conversations.

Hi guys,

So one of the things I like doing (when I'm not doing anything which isn't often) I have this really bad habit of writing really random stories about really random things. These are usually sparked by something I've read or seen.

So today you lucky people I am going to be sharing one with you. Yay!

I have honestly got to say that it isn't very good and that it is short but I really wanted to write a story and I needed to write another blog so I just thought let them read my story! (I would also like to say that it inspired by The Fault In Our Stars as I watched the film again yesterday, and yes again I cried.) If you go through anything in this story or you would like to talk them comment below and I'm always here to discuss anything with you.

Before you read it I would just like to say that it talks about Cancer, I felt that I wanted to write about this on my blog as I myself and my friends and no doubt others have someone in there family who has Cancer. A few years ago my friend lost her step dad to the disease and it was awful. Rest in Peace all the people we have lost and together we can beat it. As today as many people survive cancer as who die from it and with the research is improving and soon there will hopefully be a cure. I would like to dedicate this story to my auntie Mary, my friends step dad, my nan and Adam's best friend. Thank you for giving me a safe environment where I can post this, I am forever grateful.


You can't see the rainbow without the rain

There's a lot of things in life that scare you. The fear of growing old, the fear of being bullied, the fear of loosing a loved one, but for me my fear is not waking up in the morning.

One of the worst things that can happen in life is being told that you have Cancer. But the worst thing is having a kid that has Cancer, that really sucks. It feels like your whole life has been tipped away and that this is your last chance at life.

I know my parents wish it could be then because it hurt them more than it hurt me when I go in for a scan and the doctors told us that there is nothing they can do. When they said that my whole body was made up of tumours. When I got told that I only have 6weeks to live, I know that they are suffering inside and that instead of living all they will do is count down the days.

Now I only have one week left...

Nobody seems to notice how much everything changes. How every single second something is changing, you are growing older. How there is not one time where everybody is asleep, probably not even on your road. But I notice these things now. I am not one of these Londoners who are too busy rushing around that they aren't noticing the things that make life wonderful. The sun setting between the skyscrapers and then rising again in the morning. The haze of mist that covers the city at night but only occasionally clears to a star spotted sky. They don't notice the things that they noticed when they first moved here; the London eye and Buckingham palace all seem like a normal place to them. In some ways I am glad that I only have a short time left, I get the chance to experience these things again and feel like I felt the first time I moved to London, happy. I'm not scared of what is going to happen I would just like a little more time.

When I first got told how long I had left my mother asked me "what do you want to do Melody, we can pay anything to make the most of how long you have" but I didn't ask for anything I just wanted to do the things that make me happy and appreciate the world the way it is. I went round to my friends and family and told them how much I love them and I even wrote a will making sure not to leave anyone out. This was the last week of my life and I wanted to make it count.

So I'm sitting staring across the Thames River, with my scrapbook in my hand. I'm writing down all my memories and sticking down all the photos I have for something to remember me by. In the back I have a diary that I have been writing ever since I got diagnosed and that nobody knows about, but I feel that it's right to give it to them, so they know how I really thought. I have folded the corner of a page that I find really interesting and it was wrote over a year ago. In that entry I have wrote "It's funny, when I was younger I was told 'if you ever feel alone just focus on your breath as it will always be there for you' but one day it's not going to be there, I will be all alone, and that will be the very thing that kills me."


End of part 1.

Thank you for reading my short story. If you would like me to write another part please tell me somehow.

Scarlett x


Never forgetting those we have lost

Ruth Crilly - COLAB - Dry shampoo

Hi guys,

Today I thought I would try another different style blog as I am still not quite sure what styles you enjoy.

I am going to be reviewing the Dry Shampoo by Ruth Crilly.

Before this I had never purchased a Dry Shampoo and didn't see the point of it. Last year sometime I brought this Dry Shampoo as it was on offer in Superdrug. I wasn't sure what to expect or why to use it I just knew that when you don't have enough time to wash your hair it is great to use. So I brought it. After smelling all the other one's I decided on this one:

 

The New York- Fruity Fragrance

This is for any hair types an you can use it whenever you need an instant boost. In this can (the larger size) there is 200ml and I have used it probably twice a week for at least 4 months and I'm pretty sure it still has at least half in.

I recommend this as it is a life saver. Especially if you don't always have time to wash your hair every couple of days. Also it lasts for ages, is invisible and at full price it is £3.49 which is really cheap for Dry Shampoo. There are no flaws with this product on top of that I would pay more for something of this quality.

So that's it for this blog.

Thanx for reading

Scarlett x

Do more of the things that make YOU happy

Hi guys,

Do more of what makes you happy

So this year I have made an aim to do more of the things that make me happy as you can't count on others to bring your happiness for you. I hope that I will keep on at this as I will not only see the difference the others around me will to.

I have decided to do what I have been wanting to do for ages, post YouTube videos. On my channel I'm not going to post what everyone else does I'm going to post what I want to and my main thing I want to do are skits even if they aren't funny I just want to upload short drama pieces as I find them really fun.

Also I came back to writing my blog. I took some time of writing my blog as I was getting really upset about the feedback. One of the best things I have done was come back and write on here as I realised it was such a good way to get out your opinions. Yes I only have 2 followers (Thank you, hi you two I love you lots) and yes I don't have the most views in the world (Thank you for the 157 page views which I am currently on at the moment) and yes I don't get many views on my posts (Again Thank you for the 37 views on my posts combined- I'm British I cant help being polite sorry) but the fact is I love doing this and when I came back it reminded me of the feeling when I first hit 10 page views and I was ecstatic. Then I remember I hit 50 page views and I was so exited I was jumping round my bedroom squealing, I never thought I would actually get that many views. (If you're a boy- hello! -and it's something girls do when they are happy) Not long ago I hit 100 page views, honestly, I cried. You can't imagine what it is like. Even though this might seem like a stupid thing to celebrate but the fact is to me, it is amazing.

But now there is an even bigger thing I want to celebrate. I have hit and gone over 150 page views. It still hasn't sunk in that my page has been clicked on 150 times by people that I don't even know. And if this is the first one of my blog's you have read or this is the 5th I just want to say thank you. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to click on my blog. Even if it was a mistake thank you. Never in my wildest dreams did I think that this would come true. I started my blog on my phone in my bedroom because I wanted to get things down to make sure people had something to read to help them. And now I'm basically still doing the same but on a laptop and one BIG change is that now I'm happy. My life isn't perfect I still have anxiety but the fact is I can clearly say that I don't have depression anymore. That is down to you. I'm sorry I've said it so much in this blog but...

THANK YOU

 

So screw the kids at school, or the people at work. So what if your parents or friends find out do WHATEVER it is that will make YOU happy. And then maybe the things that you do to make yourself happy will have an impact on others to.

 

 

So I'm going to go now. Even though I don't want to but I have to. Last thing to say is come back soon :)

 

 

Love Scarlett x

 

p.s Thankyouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu Yes you right there reading this. Thanx x <3

River Cruise

Hi guys,

This is a part of my Stratford-Upon-Avon blog but I had so many photos that I thought I would do a separate blog.



As Stratford is on the banks of the River Avon we went on a boat along the river.
I'd never been on a boat before so I was quite nervous also my friend was scared of boats so don't blame me.

Inside there was tables set out with candles and flowers and it was all so cute.

The tour guide started talking about if there was a fire what to do (I was confused like why do you need to worry about a fire your on a boat you have loads of water to use.) then he talked about what to do if the boat started sinking and all stuff like this. I was thinking about all of this happening.
Way to freak us out (I didn't die by the way XD)





It turns out I love boats!

It was so nice and relaxing and the views where amazing.

The photo's aren't amazing qualities as I only had my phone to take photo's on and I was scared that I would drop my phone into the water.

It was so high up that you could touch it if you reach out the window!

But the tour was amazing. Seriously I never thought that being on a boat for 40minutes going along a river could be so good.

So Tumblr

I took so many photo's on that cruise. I've never took that many before. I will put them all below (Unless they are really bad) and you can look through them if you want to.

Thank you for reading this blog and I hope you'll stick around for another one.

Please comment if you like this style blog or what types of blogs you would like me to do.

Bye for now

Scarlett x


Photo's below

 

Have a hug :3

Day out at Statford-Upon-Avon

Hi guys,

So in October last year (that sounds so weird to say! I mean 2014 if you are confused) I visited
Stratford on a school trip. This trip was a part of the Comenius project. In this project 5 countries are involved: England, Italy, Turkey, Poland and Estonia. In October it was our turn to host so students and staff from a school in each of those countries travelled to England to experience the schooling here. All there flights and trips where paid by the government free of charge and they where housed by students at my school.

Stratford if a big tourist destination in England as it is the birthplace of the playwright and poet- William Shakespeare. Also it is beautiful with it's old fashioned Tudor houses and the wildlife it's a perfect place to take a tourist.
(Sorry the photo of the Tudor house isn't very good we where walking along the road and couldn't stop to get pictures, this was the best I could get.)

I love Tudor houses I think they are beautiful and I would love to own one myself when I am older.

When we got to Stratford it was around 1o'clock so we went and had our lunch in a beautiful area, best of all we had a picnic!

We where eating outside the Royal Shakespeare Company which is alongside the river Avon. It was the best lunch I've ever had on a school trip, everyone was having so much fun and enjoying themselves it was amazing.

The fountain above was a next to the area where we ate.
Also the photo is starring Scaffolding, Elly and Connie, sorry about that.

After that we walked along the streets past all the weirdly shaped buildings crammed in as to not take up areas of beauty.

While walking there we where supposed to be taking photos of these lampposts (streetlamps in America I think) that where donated from different places around the world. They where interesting and nice to look at but not many people took any photos. I didn't so I cant show you any.

The fun thing was all the teachers where way ahead of all the kids and they where just talking so we could just do what we wanted. This involved going in red telephone boxes, doing parkour, racing and taking so many selfies in front of buildings that looked important.
These may not seem like fun normally but when your hyper on a school trip anything is fun.



We where making our way to the Church of the Holy Trinity where Shakespeare was buried. (You can see a picture of it to the right and one below.)

This church is so pretty. It has amazing details on it. But I don't have any pictures of the best bits as they where in the graveyard area and I thought it wouldn't be respectful to take photos there.

We could go inside to see Shakespeare's grave but I didn't go in as everyone was just taking photos but I didn't want to. Me and a few others waited outside and looked round at the church. As everybody was taking ages we went to the park next to the church to use the toilets and to look round at the other lampposts donated.




After that we just walked along the streets looking at the different shops and houses. We passed Shakespeare's house and some amazing gardens.

When we got back to where we started we went into the Royal Shakespeare company to go to the gift shop and look around.

Then we went up the tower (I cant remember the name) to look around Stratford. Guess what- we had to go in a lift.

I am petrified of lifts, so this is one of my worst nightmares. To make it worse we are going to be really high up, I'm scared of heights. Lucky there was no spiders otherwise I would of had a heart attack.




Let me just give you a image of how scared I am of heights.
Last school year when I was in Year 9 we went to London. When there we went in the London Eye, at this time I didn't know I was scared of heights, until I was up in the air.
If you don't know what the London Eye is it's the massive wheel that you sit in and it turns round (google it, I cant explain it very well), I think it is the biggest in England but I'm not sure.
So basically as soon as it started moving I started feeling sick. I was trapped, in a pod with a bunch of kids from my school most of which are horrible to me.
My friend and my brother told me it was okay and that I would be safe so I stood up and looked out at the views.




It was wonderful until they started rocking the pod. I sat on the seat in the middle with thoughts of the pod breaking and us all dying and started having a panic attack.
I've only ever had one panic attack in front of people who aren't my friends and this was the worst I've ever had.
This was like my nightmares, I was trapped, crying, half way up into the sky with people who make my life a misery. I was unable to move so scared to let go of my bag or my phone in case it dropped onto the floor and I knew if that happened I would be unable to get it.
On the way back down they had a group photo and I couldn't get of the seat to be a part of it.
I wish I could of seen those views of London but it just wasn't possible.

This time felt different.
When I stepped into the crowded lift I grabbed my friends hand and she said she could see the fear in my eyes. Then the lift moved and I screamed. In a crowded lift luckily hardly anyone new me.

The lift reached the top and my head was spinning I was surrounded by glass looking out over Stratford. I tried to take good photos but I was shaking so these are the best I got.

My friend said to lean on the bar (which was in front of the glass window.) and I did.

When I did that I suddenly felt safe. I was able to walk round and glare out at the sights and I cried. But not because I was sad because I was so happy that I was able to do it to conquer my fear. I am still scared of heights but now I know how to overcome it.

Here are some more photos of the views. Sorry about the bar I'm small I couldn't get a higher photo.

I have got some photos from the river cruise we went on but I will save that for another time.

Also I have fixed the comments so you can now leave your opinions so please do, whatever it is it will be helpful.

Thanx for reading,

Scarlett x